I was browsing my personal journal last night before i went to sleep and i want to share my last entry which was last August 2, 2004. so here it is:

Aug. 2, 2004

Well, im really trying to make my everyday experience be written here in my so-called journal. I've once read in the tabloid that those people who wrote or kept their own journals live long...hehehe but actually my own reason for writing in my journal /diary is that, when i wanted to look back on my past there are those pages i can looked back at.. I don't believe in those lines taht say, "Leave the past behind where it belongs..". Well, of course, i guess it depends on teh person if she would let it affect her present and/or future, but to some, looking back at their past reminds them of the person they used to be and the things they used to love, it brings back good and bad memories which would help them realize why things should've been this and taht way. It makes tehm understand & appreciate the kind of life God has given them.

For me, every little thing that I've been through and experienced, I thank God for that coz it always amazes me how He perfectly allowed these people to come into my life, how He allowed things to happen in my life... I guess i'm starting to put the pieces of puzzles of my life together..to see the whole picture, the essence of my being brought up in this world. But, then again it's in His hands, He gives the pieces of puzzles one by one and let me first realize and appreciate it one by one before i put in the puzzle itself. Amazing isn't it?! God really lets you appreciate the beauty of life and all that goes with it!

"My advice to you is to live your life. Allow thht wonderful inner intelligence to speak through you. The blueprint for you to be your authentic self lies within. In some mysitcal way the microscopic egg taht grow to be you had the program for your physical, intellectual, emotional, & spiritual development. Allow the development to occur to it fullest; grow & bloom. Follow your bliss & be waht you want to be. Don't climb the ladder of success only to find it's leaning against the wrong wall. Do not let your age limit your future growth as a human being." -Bernie S. Siegel, M.D.

This is an excerpt from the book given to us by our bestfriend,Avi; the title of the book is LOVE, MEDICINE & MIRACLES by B. Siegel.

light effects?!? 

At the lobby of Rob Tower 2... Fem,A.genna, Me 

Biostat group mates..all in black!!! L-R: Lee,Anna,VAnz, Odille,A.Genna, M-rose 

Today my class was only till 1 pm. Then ate genna and I had a movie date and we watched "Saved"...hmmm...what can i say 'bout that flick? it has some Christian, in particular Born Again touches but O.A masyado...those people watching at our back were making noises and in the middle of the film , the guy told that he can't stand it anymore and they went out of the movie house and while they were going out the guy shouted "Amen..I'm saved..." bsta they're kinda doing it in a mocking manner...and the film? i dont know what to say..bsta for me its ok and there are lessons to be learned there especially for Christians..i guess u need some deep analization of the movie..sabi ko nga kina joyce they should watch it too so that we could make our conclusions about that movie...nweiz after the movie, we went back to school to get our stuff in the locker and then i recieved a txt from JC and he told me that they're @ Go nutz..Donuts..kc before that i told him na we'll go home na lng together coz he'll still be meeting up with his girlfriend so un after recieving the txt we went back to Rob and meet up with them and nun andun kmi sa Go nutz..Fem saw us and invited us to go with her, in their new unit in Rob building.. e si jayz he told me na mga 6 pa daw kmi uuwi coz nag-uusap pa cla, so sumama na lng muna ako kina Fem and grabe it was the first time i went inside that building and feeling ko nsa AD ako coz the elevators and the arrangement..bsta..pero i think mas maganda un kc aside from the big-sized swimming pool and other facilities, like the mini-golf area, and i think it has 40 or something floors kc un unit that FEm and four other schoolmates will be renting is at the 30th floor..taas 'no? and grabe its nice pero 1 bedroom lng and a small kitchen then a big living room w/c is ok na din for them and the unit is fully-furnished...they were interviewed kac by the owner of the unit and kmi ni a. genna iniinterview din nun friend nun owner..pero 'bout our school lng.the difference of UP from other schools..bsta those kind of stuff...how i wish nakatira rin ako sa ganun..hehe para malapit sa school...gosh that would be so nice..kwinento ko nga kay JC e and sobrang gusto nya din daw coz hassle- free na sa traffic BUT the only problem is ANG MAHAL!!!! P25 K a month with a 2 months deposit of P100 K ..ndi namin kaya un... Nweiz, after that we juz stayed at the lobby and waited for JC and Julie then hinatid muna namin si Julie sa sakayan malapit sa SM then ayun on our way home i had a nice talk with JC about the movie i watched (Saved), Feng Shui (scary...i want to watch it!!!),un talk nila ni Julz, un chat ko with my HS classmate last night,the "bus guy", the "i-net guys", my HS cm8s, our 'first love'...hehehehe basta ang dami..i really enjoyed it... and speaking of my chat with that HS friend/classmate..sobra tlga i was in tears a bit..and he was too..ang sad na masaya...it all started with our dreamboy/girl and from there it lead to only one thing..."the past"! basta that's it... =)

Well i juz wanted to share my devotion last night because it is worth sharing to everyone... =)
The scripture can be found at Galatians 6:1-5 and it talks about doing good to all! and here's the text of my devotional (Into His Presence by Charles Stanley).. hope u'll like too...

In her book Relationships, Pamela Reeve shares insight on giving in the context of a long-term relationship:

Commitment is the bond that keeps relationships intact through every storm that rolls over the horizon. There will be times when your friend isn't free to do what you want to do... Friends may become preoccupied with new interests or wrestle with heavy, emotionally-draining problems. They may not be functioning well physically. They may not be warma nd responsive. Is that the time to abandon the friendship?
Not if you've made a commitment! Your friend may need you more that ever before. "A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity" (Prov. 17:17). Why are you in the friendship to begin with? For what you can recieve? For what can you get out of it to meet your own needs and stroke your own ego?
No, following the example of our Lord, we enter into relationships to give and to bless. There are seasons in every relationships when one is called on to give disproportionately to the other.
There may be years with a difficult elderly parent or a lifetime with an indifferent spouse. Here is where commitment is tested, and here is where you will encounter God's greatest blessings.

So for this day, had an exam but its a practical exam and we've got partners to work with so it makes things lighter although nakakakaba pa rin sya but its ok naman. Then we had a rummage sale in SVCF and before that we cleaned first our "garbage locker" and i was the one who cleaned the cabinet...well ako un nagbasa and wipe nun locker sila na un nagbalik ng things..i was the one who did the dirty work..but its ok i enjoyed it naman... then during our zoo lab class..as usual we looked at our specimens, w/c are the Echinoderms..the star fishes then after that we had our usual bonding sessions with 'chikahan' with our prof...hehe then one of our topic was about "gays" and i was shocked to know that there were a lot of them in the UP College of Med..w/c i thought would be the place where you would find a lot of gwapos na may utak pero im wrong pla..magaganda pla cla... hehehe according to our prof or my classmate (im not sure who told it),bsta based on statistics, 70% of the guy population in UP Med are gays and only 30% are straight!!!! haaayy ang sad 'no? pero i enjoy namn the company of my gay friends..their fun to be with kaso nakaklungkot lng...my close gay friend well actually according to him he's not gay..bisexual daw sya coz nagka girlfriend na sya before pero parang ganun pa din un eh coz mas maarte pa sya sa akin and sobrang daming luvlife (boys)..daig pa ako! palagi ko nga un inaasar eh...hehe and guess what? He'll be my thesis partner and i'll be spending my last year of my Bio years with him..can't wait..hehe pagnagsasama nga kmi and he'll tell our other batch mates that i'll be his thesis partner bigla nyang tatanungin sa kanila.. "o sino mas maganda sa amin?!" hahaha well kahit na ganun un luv ko pa rin yan si Jeff..* Jeff, hope u cud read this..tickets natin ha don't forget,sama na rin natin si Abi..wawa namn sya eh..hehe..dapt dun tau sa mga magagandang places mag thesis ha?* Oh well that's all...ciao..be back soon... =)

Juz finished watching"Amazing Race" and grabe i fell in love with "Brandon"!!!!! well not really fell in love..as if namn 'no?! i juz admire him for his character and his personality and i pray that when the right time comes for me to have a relationship...i hope i could find someone like him!!!! Ok so what about Brandon? He's totally amazing..a perfect gentleman and above all else he's a CHRISTIAN!!!! Ang sweet nya sa girlfriend nya and you can tell he's got a strong faith in God. His girlfriend,Nicole really wanted to win that race and get the $ 1M prize and si Brandon namn he wanted to win din pero he's already happy with what they have reached in that race and being with Nicole. There were times that Nicole can't continue the race coz she's so tired..in particular when they were in Canada, where they have to climb the snowy mountain to get their clue and si Nicole she really was tired and sobrang bagal nya and si Brandon namn kahit na malayo-layo na sya kay nicole..baba ulit sya para samahan and sabayan si nicole and he said something to her na napatunayan ko na he's really a christian..he said to nicole that "juz imagine that you're running towards Jesus, and He's reaching for you with arms wide open"...then compared to another couple in the race, Colin and Cristy...naawa ako kay Cristy coz everytime that she would slow down kc nga nakakapagod tlga ang mag climb sa snowy mountain na un...sisigawan sya ni Colin na there's no time to rest and bla bla bla...haaaayyy saludo ako kay Cristy for keeping up with that kind of boyfriend sana marealize un ni Colin!!! Nweiz goin' back to Brandon, that was not only the instances that na-prove ko na he's a Christian and ndi lng bsta-bstang Christian coz he's really being a true Christian...nun nsa plane sya where all of them are resting..sya he's reading his Bible and they would also pray together and with this kind of game where there is a stiff competition u're tempted to lie juz like what the two married couples, Chip and his wife (i forgot her name) did to them in order to win or to survive in that game..sya sbi nya ndi nya un style...Sbi nya if it is God's will for them to win no matter what..they'll win...tpos eto pa sobrang na-inlove tlga ako sa kanya nun andun sila sa may olympic park sa Canada they have to choose between 2 task either they'll go slide or bike..un slide it'll take juz a couple of seconds but it's kinda dangerous and the bike it'll take them 3mins and if they weren't able to finish the task in the given amount of time they have to repeat it all over again...so im not really sure pero i know that Brandon wanted to take the slide but Nicole wanted the bike and they had to argue about it but pinagbigyan ni brandon si nicole as always namn eh...but they have to repeat it again and again and ndi makaya ni nicole until she cried like a baby and sobrang she's giving up na tlga and si brandon he stopped and he comforted nicole and told her that its ok so they did the slide thing na lng..grabe tlga and it juz took them 32 seconds to finish that task and when they were in the taxi..sbi ni nicole na they should have done that na lng daw...bsta parang pinapalabas nya na mali un decision ni brandon..e hello she was the one who chose that bike thing for all i know...tpos sbi na lng ni brandon.."ok so im the bad guy..im sorry.." they kinda had a little arguement with that but in the end ok na ulit sila and sbi lng ni Brandon dun sa cam that "he loves Nicole, but he's not sure if she's the one na coz wala pa daw syang nararamadaman na peace" hehehe nag joke nga kmi ni jc eh kc sbi nya "o ate wla pa daw syang peace..." then i said.."ui brandon, im here...im available..." hahaha so ayun..they didn't win they were only 3rd place and un nanalo ay un married couples...sad pero they really had a big impact on those people watching them esp. Brandon!!! So ba't ko ba kwinekwento 'to?! It's because, this is the first time na i was convinced that it really is nice to have a Christian boyfriend/partner. Although i know that should be the case and un din kasi un paulit-ulit na reminder ng parents ko (aside from finish ur studies first before having boyfriends!!! haha), that we shouldn't be equally yoked with the unbelievers juz like as stated in the Bible...ndi ko msyado pinaniniwalaan coz parang pareho lng din eh the Christian guys i know their juz the same except for my DAddy and medyo my brother syempre...hehehe And because of Brandon naging big factor na ulit ang pagiging Christian ng future "one love true love" ko...so when will that be, and will it ever happen na i'll find my one love true love? hmmm... i dont know..but when it does come, i'll make sure na he'll be my one love true love tlga!!!! So that's all for now..i'll just end this entry with this short paragraph that i always read when i start thinking about being "loveless" and when my friends start questioning me why up until now wla akong boyfriend and when im surrounded by people who always talk about their special someone ...hehehe

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they're afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground, that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing! That is why we just have to be a little patient and the right boy, the one who takes a chance to find the good, right apple, will come someday...

Lee,Sarah,Odille,Steffi, A.Genna, Odille's friends (guys)

friends at UST

At our tambayan...behind that board is the pi sigma tambayan im talking about..haha

Nikko n Lee

Geno n Lee

D couplez with Geno n Lee!

Oh well dami kong kwento..well not really pero i should say i've got interesting subjects to talk about but before that let me describe how this day turned out to be...when i left home it was such a sunny and bright day then after my first class the rain was pouring very hard...gulo tlga ng weather d2 sa Pnas! Then the sun came out again around 4 in the afternoon.

So let's get down to business: A CLOSE ENCOUNTER WITH A FRAT WAR!!!!
I was staying at our generic tambayan(SVCF) waiting for my cg mates coz we should be having our cellgroup every tues 1-2:30 but no one showed up. i thought of leaving and juz stay at the library but Nikko came and we started chatting about our QTs, persecution of Christians, and then about the second coming of Christ.We had a little debate and RV was there too..our debate was about "What would happen to the minority group in the country when Christ comes again? how would they know about Christ?"(Of course i know the answer to that) Si nikko kc is juz a baby christian but i really admire his spirituality coz eventhough he's being scrutinized by his parents and pinagbabawalan na sya na umattend ng mga gathering/fellowship ng SV,he still remains strong in his belief as a christian and he really loves serving and worshipping God.Nweiz, napalayo na tau dun sa topic bsta un we were talking a lot of christianity stuff and then i brought out the camera and told them na magpicturan kmi so that meron akong remembrance sa knila..they thought i was leaving...hehe so un then after sometime a bunch of guys was fast approaching the tamabayan (alpha sigma frat) beside our tamabayan..they we're looking so serious and some of them were holding metal pipes in their hands and i recognized some of the guys that we're approaching the pi sigma..mga taga TOM namn (another frat) well since before pa namn daw rivals na tlga itong dalawang frat na 'to eh..so ayun den nun nakita nun mga opi sigma sinigawan nila na bat daw cla andun..magsi alis daw sila..e syemrpe makikinig ba un mga un..so i guess lam nyo na kung ano na un mga nangyayari..they started attacking each other and nagmumurahan na sila then syempre they were juz ner the guardhouse and a girl from their sorro called the guards and the guards immediately came and inaawat cla pero ayaw magpaawat and still nagmumurahan sila and throwing stuff,like chairs, bricks, bsta..and kmi namn 3 (me, nikko, n Rv) on the other side of the board (un lng kc division nun tambayan namin were so afraid bka kc madamay kmi and the two guys were really protecting me nilalayo nga nila ako eh then nun napaalis na nun mga guard un mga TOm, i started packing up my things at sorbang na-shock ako dun i told the guys that i'll go to the lib na and they were telling me na dumaan na lng daw ako dun sa garden at wag na dun sa side nun pi sigma..grabe tlga so i went to the lib to borrow some books then went to the canteen and found ate genna and odille there and of course they asked me about that si odille kc TOM din and kwinento nya kung ano un reason kung bat may gulo na namn and believe me..its so pathetic..better not tell it na lng...the frat/sorro concept is such nonsense...ean ko ba sa kanila..puro gulo lng hinahahanap nila e...and everytime magkaroon ng ganun incident all those frat guys will be suspended from school for a day or couple of days..Si dandan ndi nya alam na may nangyari and he's aTOM tpos he attended our class in HUM but Odille told him to go home na at bawal na gna syang pumasok bka kunga no pa mangyari sa kanya and un boyfriend din nun former blockmate ko na si annadel was so worried kc TOM din un eh..haayyy nakakatakot...so nun mga late afternoon na puro mga girls na lng un makikita mo sa mga tambayan nila..hehe tsk tsk tsk..their ruining their lives dahil lng sa mga nonsense brotherhood nila...

ok enough of that frat war..let's talk about what we did during our 4-5:30 break... GO NUTZ FOR FRENDZZZ!!!! Yesterday Odille told me about her plans of going to UST coz she would deliver go nutz..donuts to her friends there then i told her na sasama ako para i-meet ko si sarah and dalhan ko na din sya ng go nutz din coz ndi nya pa din un natitikman..so un after our HUM class together with ate genna and steff we went to UST on our way there medyo traffic and we've got 1 and 1/2 hours lng but in 20 mins we reached UST na din and before goin' out of the car we need to do our 'girl thing' daw coz according to A.genna and Steff we're in a new env't and marami daw mga cute guys kya kailangan ndi kmi mukhang mga nerdy-nerdz..then when we went out of the car we felt out of palce coz all of them were in uniform and halatang outsiders kmi...hehe so ayun Odille met up with her friends, 2 guys na magkapatid (ka-yfc daw nya un) and gave the donut and A.genna too met up with her 3rd yr HS classmate and also gave him a donut and syempre ako si SArah un immmeet ko pero it took a while coz she was out of campus eating at McDo so cguro we waited for 10-15 mins before she came and un we juz took a pic and ran off na din coz we have a class to catch up...buti na lng talented si Odille mag-drive we were back in 10-15 mins lng ata..hehe and nun malapit na kmi sabi namin.."oh well welcome back to our boyless school.." hehhee well majority kc ng population ng boys in UP ay either gay or bi kya no wonder un mga kasama ko naghahanap ng mga guys in other schools...ako? well yeah i was looking for cute-real guys din pero i was juz looking..no intentions of meeting one (ows?)...hahaha =)

hmmm..what else?well i got a txt from two of my HS friends whom i haven't heard from for the past few months..and im glad nagparamdam sila! hehehe so that's it..kalas.

Well..well..well..this would be a long one for there were lots of things that have happened over the past few days..i was quite busy studying for my exams last week..so here it is:

WEDS: It really is true that when you start your day with the Lord, everything would be okay! “Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you.” Me and Joyce attended dawnwatch, w/c is a short time of prayer and devotion at our church which starts at 5 am till 6 am.And iba tlga pag whole-heartedly ka sa pag attend kc before napipilitan lng ako eh and ndi maganda un result pero this day, kusa ako gumising and I was really looking forward to it! And by the way one more thing that made me happy was that, while waiting for a jeep na papuntang church, it was still dark and naisipan kong tignan un mga stars and the very moment I looked at the sky….I SAW A SHOOTING STAR!!!! It was the first time for me..i was so happy tlga..well did I make a wish?hmm.. actually, I was thinking about it..coz bka mga superstitious belief na namn un eh ayoko ng ganun BUT still sbi ko cge make a wish na lng I know naman na it’s God who’ll make it come true not the shooting star! So un, after all those debate goin’ on inside my head I finally made my wish nun nsa jeep na kmi…hehehe well I only wished for my acads that I would pass all of my subjects and I would get nice grades and I wont take any removals na till I graduate! So yun…the rest of the day was nice even though wala namn masyadong nangyari..i juz studied for my exam for the next day!

THURS: the highlights of this day were: (1) an earthquake na ndi ko naramdaman coz I was sleeping so peacefully kya ndi ako makarelate kina joyce and Jc and our maid na pinag-uusapan un, joyce thought na there was a ghost..hehe and si jc namn utwang-tuwa coz it was his first time to experience an earthquake , while our maid namn was also scared coz parang mahuhulog na daw un mga cabinets…den sa school un din un topic ng mga classmates ko..haaayy.. (2) My ZOO LAB EXAM: a very unforgettable exam for me!!! Ok here’s the story: every lab exam in our course is a moved exam. Meaning there are a number of stations with questions (usually 5 ques) to be answered for 2 mins and then our prof would say “MOVE” and then we’ll move to the next station until all the students we’re able to pass through all the stations. So for this particular exam, we had 21 stations, with the last station as our bonus station and usually it is an additional points if we were able to answer the questions correctly (bat pa tinwag na bonus ‘no?) nweiz, so Claudia was the first one among us who stepped into that station and then we we’re shocked when she blurted out “Ma’am ur kidding me..is this true????” kala namin kung ano un..den suddenly she started singing happy birthday to you..so nakuha na namin un idea nun that we have to sing…hahaha the problem is I DON’T SING!!!!!!! Kya grabe tlga ndi ako maka-concentrate sa exam nun malapit na ako sa station na un my classmates are teasing me.. “go lee-ann!!!!” and den un it was my turn..i have to sing (out loud!) a song for 2 mins..so did I sing? Of course YES! Its my grade we’re talking about..so I sung Barney’s “I love you, You love me..lalalalalala..”, then “beauty and the Beast’s theme song” ,” then Baba Black sheep”, “Twinkle, Twinkle little star”, “mary had a little lamb”, and Lupang Hinirang..and dami no? kya lgn namn un madami kc ndi ko titnatapos un song coz id on’t know the lyrics…haaayyy bsta after my time has ended I was so relieved…grbe tlga un!!! HOWEVER…. All those singing has paid off coz I got 98% for this particular exam it was the first time for me in my stay here in this SUPER DUPER BRAIN-DRAINING SCHOOL!!!! Hehehe cguro kailangan I should sing na lng plgi in my exams pra ganun un makuha kong mga grades..hahaha NO WAY!!!

FRIDAY: Well nothing much happened ..juz studied..studied..studied for an exam ulit in Biochem namn…and it was the opening of GO NUTZ..DONUTZ at Rob Place ( the extension of UP Manila..hehehe), they have the BEST Donutz in town!!!!! Yum yum… Then after the exam we were supposed to watch a play by the bio sophies at the college of med but are exam ended at 8:30 pm and when we came there, they were already packing up..haha kya umuwi na kmi…

WEEKEND: THIS WAS A REFRESHING WEEKEND!!!!
My bestfrienf avi, spent her weekend in our house. And it was nice we were able to have our “girl talks” again. Saturday afternoon, we decided to hang out at the Mainplace pra dun ako mag-aral and si avi to read the Alchemist, but it turned out na ndi namin nagawa un coz we talked about having our own sort of a multi-assorted café-restaurant…hehehe bsta parang ganun and it would be a place for all AD peepz with pictures reminding us of AD and our HS pics, bsta its so nice..Avi suggested nga na we’ll call it “The Corniche” hehe then we’ll serve everything from shwarma,coffee, cookies, cakes, pastries, burgers, bsta lahat na…sbi nga namin pati sheesha eh..hehehe Then we watched the practice of the handiworks and after that went home na. Then I just continued studying, while watching..hehehe then I woke up at 3:30 am to prepare JC”s breakfast (wala kc un maid namin coz its her bdaya nd I told her to have her day-off na lng) coz he’ll be having his final exam in his PE class in UP Diliman- The traditional ‘FUN RUN’ for all freshmen..we’ve been there na din and amazing nga kmi ni joyce coz we were able to finish that 1km run for 20 mins or less than nga ata eh..well may shortcut kc eh..hehe so un after JC left I slept again and I was supposed to wake up at 7 or 7:30 am coz I have my review class every Sunday nga but na-late na ako ng gising and ginising nga lng ako ni avi eh so it was already 8 and 8 un start nun class ko so I decided not to go na lng and instead attend the Sunday service w/c would be the first time for me since July (tagal ‘no?) and besides I really wanted Avi to attend also coz that was her reason for spending her weekend in our place kc if I went to my review class sasabay na din sya sa akin umuwi and she wont be able to attend the service so ayun..i really had a great time in the house of God again..i reallt missed it!!! And it was really refreshing to hear God’s words again…and I know Avi had a refreshing time too… …I really had a nice weekend!!!!


MONDAY: So for today, the usual school stuff..the exam I was studying for this weekend was postponed and inis na inis un mga classmates ko sa prof namin..for me, its ok lng..it means more time to study pa and memorize things I haven’t memorized yet..the only drawback is that it would really be as what my prof said “hell week” for us coz next week almost everyday we’ll be having an exam and not juz an ordinary one, it would all be a departmental exam..meaning it’s a MAJOR exam!!! Nweiz I juz can’t believe that next week would also be the last week for this sem..ang bilis! Pero it also means SEMBREAK!!!!!! Yahoo.. so me and jayz had our quick lunch at Go Nutz..hehe ang yummy tlga ng donuts nila useless tuloy un pagddiet ko with all the carbs we get from that sweet scrumptious tasty donut!!! Sheesh..mas lalo akong tataba nito…NOOOO!!!! After that, went back to school coz jayz needs to study pa and I have an execom meeting in my org (SVCF) to attend…den I had my zoo lab class and we got the result of our exam last thurs and I’ve already mentioned the nice grade that I got..hehe den I juz took pics of our specimens again and this time its all SHELLS (Phylum Mollusca)…den after class went back to Rob to meet with my group mates in BioStat and do our case study…kso all my groupmates especially Vanz and Vivz sobrang mura ng mura kc naiinis sila dun sa so-called leader namin coz ang dami dami nyang inaassign sa amin and wla pa kming nakikitang ginawa nya..un lng..utos-lng sya n utos sa amin..kaya asar na asar sila..well ako..i admit naiinis na din ako sa kanya coz everytime I receive this piece of paper with all the thigns to do list namin for our case study..wala akong makitang name nya…sbi nga ni Vanz cguro mahirap na din un ginagawa nya na mag-iisip kung sino dapt gagawa nito and that..cguro kailangan nya pang i-research un!! Hehehe haaayyy bat ganun?! I really think its unfair! So that’s it..my phalanges are aching na...hahaha

Avi n Lee at the Soul Shop! 

at the mainplace 

well from my last entry you can see that i'm a bit down..no im totally down spiritually..BUT it really is true that HE won't allow that to happen.Some of the very few people who knew about my blog commented on that topic..My daddy and a friend..then i also shared it with some of my co-svcf in school..taritz and Kuya ERwin..While waiting for JC in our tambayan, ate rita asked me if we can have DPM (DAily Prayer Meeting)..kc wla kmi gingagawa tatlo e jc's cellgroup were having their cg on the other side of the table..so un as usual we say our praise item and petition..and dat was my prayer request, then kuya erwin's prayer request was sort of similar as mine pero more on his QT(Quiet Time) and Ate Rita shared with us that even though she's having her regular QT's..wala daw un joy nya..almost one month na daw..tpos she said something to kuya erwin coz k.erwin mentioned that he only say his prayers when he's going to eat his meals and taritz said, "..the #1 sign/symptom of backsliding is that u stop praying(intensely).." pinaulit ko nga un sa kanya eh coz of the words 'backsliding n no prayer' natakot ako dun e..i still pray namn eh pero not the kind of prayer that has an effect/impact..bsta ganun!so when we prayed for each other medyo i was in tears coz i was really saying my sorry's to HIM.You know what, i think im beginning to come back...my Dad's right, he said that the Holy Spirit is convicting me that's why im feeling all these things and my friend told me that why don't i offer my schedule to HIM...HE makes everything fits right in place. kaya the worry is less and everything feels light... and here are the last words of my DAd in his e-mail:
LET THE LORD DIRECT YOUR STEPS.PROV.16:9 SAYS '' THE MIND OF MAN PLANS HIS WAY, BUT THE LORD DIRECT HIS STEPS.'
NO MATTER HOW OR WHERE YOU STARTED OUT IN LIFE, YOU CAN USE YOUR CIRCUMSTANCES FOR YOUR BENEFIT, IF YOU KEEP THE RIGHT ATTITUDE.

I'm so grateful and blessed to have these people in my life..from now on, i won't let my acads,sched and most especially my laziness interfere with my time with God!!!!!

* It's a sunday and as usual its 'review time' for me instead of 'church time'..sad...disappointing..shameful.. well i could attend the afternoon service but "laziness" is the term i could associate with myself for that...sad...disappointing...shameful... am i drifting away?! NO!!!! joyce said im missing a lot of things in church..and tita Ditas kept on looking for me and gave me a message..that i should never lose the connection!!! the connection with God... do i still connect with HIM??? i'm really disappointed with myself coz i have disappointed God! i know that even though how much effort i put in all my acads and try pursuing my dreams/ goals in life... i would never succeed...these are the lines that i always hear from joyce, ate jazzie, tita ditas, and pastor gerry...im scared that God would curse me for my behavior...but...but what Lee-Ann??? excuses..excuses..and excuses...its juz so disappointing...

* i've got my forms for my National Medical Admission Test...it was in a folder together with two other booklets w/c are practice tests for us..and once i saw it..i got this strange feeling...i dont know what it is...i can't tell if its a feeling of fear bcoz im really going to take the exam on december or its a feeling of joy coz im on my way in making my dreams come true... am i going to be a doctor? i wanted to be a doctor! does God wants me to be a doctor?!

*SCHOOL SPIRIT!: U-ni-ber-si-dad ng Pi-li-pi-nas...U-ni-ber-si-dad ng Pi-li-pi-nas...U-ni-ber-si-dad ng Pilipinas...Go UP!!!!!!! watched the UAAP cheerdance competition..syempre sa Tv lng..hehe and my my...UST's pep squad is amazing dey really deserve to be the #1 pero till this year lng pra ndi ma-break un record ng UP of winning the 1st place in the cheerdance competition for 4 straight years ('98-'01)..hehe... On the other hand UP bagged the 2nd place for the 2nd time around..hope next year they'll be the # 1 again..However, i much prefer their performance last year compared to this year's performance..mas unique kc last year eh..ndi ko nga akalain they'll be included in the top 3 spot...pero buti na lng...

*Haven't finished reading the Alchemist yet, but im already halfway through....bagal ko tlga magbasa! That book is really fascinating...even though im not yet through with it..i can say that it truly is a good-highly recommended book...pero warning lng sa mga believers that wag masaydo magpadala!!!
"We are afraid of losing what we have, whether it's our life or our possessions and property. But this fear evaporates when we understand that our life stories and the history of the world were written by the same hand."

* I love my DAddy and Mommy so very much...the thought of them working so hard and sacrificing everything they can sacrifice for us to finish our studies, be able to eat the foods we want, and provide us our needs and sometimes our wants...when my mommy called this afternoon and asked me about our electric & phone bills and found out na malaki na naman sya she told us that 'magtipid naman kau mga anak' and then my 'lil sis butted in the background saying..'oo nga..wla pa akong computer dito..' we're tryin really hard to make tipid here but prices here in the Phils keeps on goin higher n higher almost everyday..tag-hirap na tlga ang Pnas..what's new?!
i juz can't wait to work and earn a living for my family so that my parents could rest and relax and juz have a good time without the stress & pressures their experiencing now...they really deserve that and its time for us,their kids to take care of them...i pray that someday our "family dream house" would come true i know this will make daddy and mommy very happy...well it will make the whole family happy!!!!

kunwari marunong...hehehe 

slyvz bday at baywalk! 

Juz wanted to share something from the book im reading...

The boy didn't know what a person's "Personal Legend" was.

"It's what you have always wanted to accomplish. Everyone, when they are young, knows what their Personal Legend is.

"At that point in their lives, everything is clear and everything is possible. They are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives. But, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible for them to realize their Personal Legend."

hmmm what's my say on that? When i was young and when people ask me what would i want to be when i grow up, i would always answer them with: "I wanted to become a doctor when i grow up!" Then as time passes by, my ambition in life started changing, when i was in sixth grade, my ambition was to become a biologist/scientist..then when i entered Highschool till i graduated,my desire to become a doctor came back but i wanted to take up physical therapy as my pre-med course. However,i wasn't able to pass the quota in the PT course in UP and the available course that i can take as my pre-med course was Biology..Funny isn't it? i guess eventhough there are times that we may lose track of our goal, there will always be a way to get back on the track again and if our Personal Legend is in God's plan for our lives, He'll put us there again! so un lng juz wanted to blurt out my thoughts about this text. =)

Well this was quite a day! Had an exam this morning and came home before lunch..then i juz hanged-out at the couch got a book to read: The Alchemist (pinipilit kc ako ni joyce na basahin daw un pra ma-discuss namin..haha sobra tlga!) den at the same time the TV is on and im watching MTV VMA 2004..."multi-tasking" ako no?well, that's one thing i've learned from UP! hehehe...Then while reading the book medyo napapapikit un mga mata ko coz i wasn't able to sleep well last nyt coz i was up till 3 am studying and woke up at 6..dats why im feeling a bit groggy!Then when joyce came home from school she asked me, if i'll bake cookies..e im feeling lazy to bake but i changed my mind in a split second..so dats it i baked oatmeal cookies w/c was an experiment coz i dont have any recipe to follow i juz made my own recipe..but it was a success coz joyce liked it and she told me mas masarap daw un kaysa sa chocchip cookies i baked last weds.

So enough of that cookies..i wanted to share something im craving for for the past few days..guess what? i wanted to go to the BEACH...a NICE beach..boracay or puerto galera will do..i wanted to try SCUBA DIVING and look at the world under the sea..grabe my course is really making me appreciate lots of things..specifically, living things.This mornin' before going to school me and joyce were observing the cockroaches in our kitchen bcoz there was dis almost-dead cockroach and there were two other cockroaches who were trying to get the dead cockroach pero ndi nila kaya e..den after that,one of the cockroach was doing 'something'(its for me n joyce na lng kung ano un..haha)...so after observing them and medyo natatakot na kmi coz dey we're already flappin?their wings?! so i got the insecticide and sprayed it on them..and after a few minutes they were all dead *wicked laugh*!!!

oh well better stop here na...till then...

*God's Feet* 

AD gurlz 

after 10 years (exagg)...i finally succeeded in posting my first entry in this blog...i spent hours in the net last night trying to publish my master piece..hehe

Nweiz, another day ahead of me..im already ready to go to school but its still early my class starts at 10 so i thought i drop by first to share some things. Hmmm... lyk what i've said i slept late around 1 am..den i recieved a txt message through yahoo from Kamil..and wala lng it juz made me smile! ;) so i woke up when my brother came into my room and asked me anong oras ka aalis? and it was like 7 already and he's supposed to leave by 6:30 bahala sya malalate sya for his class...so i got up from my bed and ate breakfast and prepared myself for school... so that's it...oh by the way i remembered the real reason i spent some time here because i want to share some thing i've juz heard from the radio..i was listening to a christian station and there was a talk 'bout our relationship with God..well he said that when we stop having conversation with God our relationship with Him disintegrates...very true..that's what i'm experiencing...my prayer life needs to be revived...oh well... Lord, i know You'll never let me go...break my heart Lord and may my relationship with you be revived..thanks Father..i love you...

So that's it for now..got to get going na coz its almost 9...be back again later.... have a nice day! GodBless =)

wow i can't believe this... a diary to be viewed by the whole wide world! thanks to my bestfriend avi coz she encouraged me to create my own blog too so that we could catch up with the latest scoops happening in our lives! and para din daw ma-practice ang writing skills namin..hehe well i needed that coz im not good with words *kakahiya* im already in my 3rd year in college and im still a trying hard writer! arrgghh...nweiz, enough of that writing skills.. what matters here is that i've got something to share..and its my life!!!

So behold here's my first entry and i welcome u all to "my so-called life" =) i'll be sharing my deepest thoughts and feelings, things i did,persons who come in and out of my life(hmmm...) and of course those who remained,places i've been to,lessons i've learned, basically EVERYTHING!!! so join me as i go through my journey...my journey in life... naks ang drama! ;)